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quarterly reviews last year because I just felt like I didn't have any momentum how I'm feeling right now is that I know what mountain I'm climbing and I'm realizing just how steep and treacherous it quite is I feel like a little weight off my shoulders but not totally because I actually have a presentation every day this week
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just felt like I didn't have any
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momentum how I'm feeling right now is
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that I know what mountain I'm climbing
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and I'm realizing just how steep and
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treacherous it quite is I feel like a
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little weight off my shoulders but not
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totally because I actually have a
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presentation every day this week
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sometimes the doubts take over sometimes the convictions like shut the f up doubts welcome back to the grass is greener series if you're new here hi I'm Amy I work at Google and most of my career is in big corporates like Google and Disney hey I'm Jenny and I've been an early employee at startups like
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the convictions like shut the f up
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doubts welcome back to the grass is
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greener series if you're new here hi I'm
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Amy I work at Google and most of my
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career is in big corporates like Google
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and Disney hey I'm Jenny and I've been
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an early employee at startups like
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notion for most of my career and I'm currently in the early stages of starting my own company in this series we wanted to show our lives in parallel to each other inspired by this saying the grass isn't necessarily greener on the other side it's Greener where you water it nice Music view you're scrambling this
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currently in the early stages of
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starting my own company in this series
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we wanted to show our lives in parallel
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to each other inspired by this saying
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the grass isn't necessarily greener on
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the other side it's Greener where you
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water it
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nice Music
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view you're scrambling this
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morning it was a struggle but the weather is actually like perfect yeah it's beautiful so excited to see everybody when we were first planning for this event we were like you know what if three people show up we're happy but to our surprise so many of you all did show up and honestly we had a blast
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weather is actually like perfect yeah
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it's beautiful so excited to see
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everybody when we were first planning
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for this event we were like you know
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what if three people show up we're happy
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but to our surprise so many of you all
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did show up and honestly we had a blast
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and huge shout out to those who brought extra picnic blankets because clearly we're a little bit underprepared we're considering doing more events like this in SF and LA but yeah you let us currently 912 and just took a really long walk a shower and I'm ready to start my day and I just want to say
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extra picnic blankets because clearly
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we're a little bit underprepared we're
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considering doing more events like this
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in SF and LA but yeah you let us
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currently 912 and just took a really
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long walk a shower and I'm ready to
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start my day and I just want to say
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really quick Amy and I have been at this YouTube thing for like over 3 years and at a certain point it kind of feels like you're talking into the void so being able to see some of you guys in like real life and just like hang out and shoot the was a ton of fun so
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YouTube thing for like over 3 years and
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at a certain point it kind of feels like
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you're talking into the void so being
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able to see some of you guys in like
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real life and just like hang out and
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shoot the was a ton of fun so
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hopefully we'll do it again it's also been getting uh warmer here in San Francisco so I am craving pineapple I'm going to start prepping for my day prepare for a meeting that I have in a few hours and we'll go from
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been getting uh warmer here in San
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Francisco so I am craving pineapple I'm
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going to start prepping for my day
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prepare for a meeting that I have in a
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few hours and we'll go from
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don't know if it's pineapple season but go get some pineapples they're delicious so this week I had a bunch of calls that are in like two buckets I would say the first bucket are folks that are related to the industry that I'm building in and just getting their feedback on this MVP
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go get some pineapples they're delicious
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so this week I had a bunch of calls that
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are in like two buckets I would say the
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first bucket are folks that are related
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to the industry that I'm building in and
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just getting their feedback on this MVP
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that I'm building out and then the second Camp is folks who can connect me to MDS and phds of like certain disciplines and also huge shout out to a subscriber Jing I don't know if you're watching but Jing connected me to his close friend who's like an PhD talked to him yesterday like really great Insight
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second Camp is folks who can connect me
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to MDS and phds of like certain
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disciplines and also huge shout out to a
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subscriber Jing I don't know if you're
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watching but Jing connected me to his
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close friend who's like an PhD talked to
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him yesterday like really great Insight
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so thank you so much for the next like hour and two I'm just going to make sure I finish all the follow-ups from those calls and do more Outreach constant Outreach and then I'll check back in before my next
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hour and two I'm just going to make sure
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I finish all the follow-ups from those
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calls and do more Outreach constant
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Outreach and then I'll check back in
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before my next
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my presentation right now because it's at 8 my face is a little puffy right now see I can kick us off really quickly well we'll be recording this call by the way once the presentation starts for people that aren't able to join presentation I feel like a little weight off my shoulders but not totally because
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at 8 my face is a little puffy right now
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see I can kick us off really quickly
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well we'll be recording this call by the
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way once the presentation starts for
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people that aren't able to join
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presentation I feel like a little weight
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off my shoulders but not totally because
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I actually have a presentation every day this week because my project just closed out all this work has been done and now I'm finally socializing and getting feedback and acknowledgement for all the work I've done that being said I'm also trying to make the best use of everyone's time because there's just
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this week because my project just closed
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out all this work has been done and now
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I'm finally socializing and getting
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feedback and acknowledgement for all the
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work I've done that being said I'm also
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trying to make the best use of
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everyone's time because there's just
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like a lot of people on these calls when we're presenting I actually decided to hold 10 15 minutes at the end of every call to just have like an open discussion figure out like what's insightful for folks like what's interesting and I also feel like when people give feedback and are just more
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we're presenting I actually decided to
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hold 10 15 minutes at the end of every
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call to just have like an open
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discussion figure out like what's
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insightful for folks like what's
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interesting and I also feel like when
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people give feedback and are just more
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involved they feel more ownership and I want to take this project and pretty much like turn it into a program hoping that I have that socialization and buy in so it's like another reason that I'm fostering this like open Forum to get people's inputs and yeah we'll see how the day goes but the biggest thing of
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want to take this project and pretty
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much like turn it into a program hoping
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that I have that socialization and buy
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in so it's like another reason that I'm
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fostering this like open Forum to get
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people's inputs and yeah we'll see how
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the day goes but the biggest thing of
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the day has now been done so moving on to the next
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to the next
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finished a call uh with a super interesting guy but I just wanted to get a take on the area that I'm building I think just like how I'm feeling right now is that I know what mountain I'm climbing and I'm like looking up the mountain and I'm like realizing just how steep and a little bit treacherous it
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interesting guy but I just wanted to get
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a take on the area that I'm building I
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think just like how I'm feeling right
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now is that I know what mountain I'm
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climbing and I'm like looking up the
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mountain and I'm like realizing just how
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steep and a little bit treacherous it
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quite is and it's just like ah H yep that's what I'm signing up for some days the mountain looks so a inspiring and other days it looks like a little bit treacherous and I think today is one of those days where it looks like more the over to San Mato now um I have a meeting
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ah H yep that's what I'm signing up for
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some days the mountain looks so a
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inspiring and other days it looks like a
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little bit treacherous and I think today
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is one of those days where it looks like
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more the
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over to San Mato now um I have a meeting
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there in a few hours but figured I'd go early and beat traffic and get some lunch work at a coffee shop whatever so yeah so I made it to San Mato I'm at this like parking garage but just on my drive here I just had so many thoughts running in my mind when Amy and I first
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early and beat traffic and get some
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lunch work at a coffee shop whatever so
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yeah so I made it to San Mato I'm at
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this like parking garage but just on my
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drive here I just had so many thoughts
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running in my mind when Amy and I first
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started the series not only did we wanted to show both sides of the spectrum of working in Tech but more importantly we just wanted to be honest about what it's really really like for me it's like revealing the underbelly of what it is really like to be in this like founder Journey one thing that is
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wanted to show both sides of the
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spectrum of working in Tech but more
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importantly we just wanted to be honest
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about what it's really really like for
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me it's like revealing the underbelly of
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what it is really like to be in this
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like founder Journey one thing that is
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so prevalent is the need for regulating your thoughts and your emotions and just the constant battle with self-doubt and being able to manage that and choosing to execute and like move forward with conviction regardless of that doubt and it's such like a interesting tension every day it feels like a dance for me
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your thoughts and your emotions and just
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the constant battle with self-doubt and
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being able to manage that and choosing
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to execute and like move forward with
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conviction regardless of that doubt and
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it's such like a interesting tension
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every day it feels like a dance for me
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some sometimes the doubts take over sometimes the convictions like shut the up doubts so today is one of those days where like the doubts are just a little bit louder I was actually talking to someone yesterday and she was like so like what if this doesn't work out like what's your backup plan and I was like I
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sometimes the convictions like shut the
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up doubts so today is one of those
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days where like the doubts are just a
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little bit louder I was actually talking
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to someone yesterday and she was like so
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like what if this doesn't work out like
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what's your backup plan and I was like I
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don't have a backup plan this is my plan in some way it was a reminder for me that I'm like very serious about this journey and I'm all in every day I ask myself do I want to do one more day of this and so far it's been yes it's constantly been a yes so whenever those
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my plan in some way it was a reminder
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for me that I'm like very serious about
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this journey and I'm all in every day I
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ask myself do I want to do one more day
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of this and so far it's been yes it's
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constantly been a yes so whenever those
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doubts just feel a little bit louder I I just tell myself just take one day at a time tomorrow's a new
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just tell myself just take one day at a
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time tomorrow's a new
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on this call a little suddenly I was seeing like a lot of back and forth over email about the call tomorrow there seems to be some kind of disagreement over what will be presented and I just thought it'd be easiest to get the group together we should definitely align on on the structure of the call tomorrow
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seeing like a lot of back and forth over
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email about the call tomorrow there
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seems to be some kind of disagreement
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over what will be presented and I just
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thought it'd be easiest to get the group
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together we should definitely align on
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on the structure of the call tomorrow
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and that we are all in agreement about like how we want this to be presented but I just want to get everyone's take and see if you feel like that makes sense okay great so I think we can plan to do that then hopefully we can drive some good discussions and get these over
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like how we want this to be presented
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but I just want to get everyone's take
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and see if you feel like that makes
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sense okay great so I think we can plan
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to do that then hopefully we can drive
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some good discussions and get these over
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the fs okay bye it is 250 p.m. but basically there was a flurry of emails going back and forth regarding the presentation tomorrow and giving urgency of resolution with like call tomorrow morning I actually just sent out an invite like hell time on everyone's calendars and was like let's just make
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basically there was a flurry of emails
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going back and forth regarding the
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presentation tomorrow and giving urgency
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of resolution with like call tomorrow
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morning I actually just sent out an
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invite like hell time on everyone's
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calendars and was like let's just make
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this time work so we can like discuss this and like close it out think at any big company really like any company big or small there's always going to be like different opinions I found the best path forward is never going to be a perfect solution right because everyone is going to have a different perspective the best
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this and like close it out think at any
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big company really like any company big
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or small there's always going to be like
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different opinions I found the best path
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forward is never going to be a perfect
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solution right because everyone is going
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to have a different perspective the best
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path forward is actually just basing things on data like anything that's like factual you can't always make everyone happy and that's totally fine it seems like in this case we're all aligned with that step which is great uh we'll see how it goes
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things on data like anything that's like
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factual you can't always make everyone
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happy and that's totally fine it seems
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like in this case we're all aligned with
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that step which is great uh we'll see
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how it goes
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my only thing I wonder if there's something even smaller that you can test out earlier yay I'm so happy for you feel like so much happened in like literally just few weeks so it's literally just few weeks so it's currently 720 and I'm back at home um had a really
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something even smaller that you can test
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out earlier yay I'm so happy for you
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feel like so much happened in like
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literally just few weeks so it's
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literally just few weeks so it's currently
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720 and I'm back at home um had a really
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great chat with my friend um in Sano his company's doing awesome he was able to like just give pretty good insight into what I'm building um because most of his customers are Healthcare companies so I do think he has like kind of a unique POV there I was just calling with another friend over dinner and it's so
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company's doing awesome he was able to
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like just give pretty good insight into
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what I'm building um because most of his
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customers are Healthcare companies so I
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do think he has like kind of a unique
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POV there I was just calling with
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another friend over dinner and it's so
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funny because I know like my day was kind of like like had a little bit of a low during my car drive after calling with my friend it just like was a reminder for me of how clutch having a community around you is even being able to hear my friend tell me about everything that he's
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kind of like
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like had a little bit of a low during my
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car drive after calling with my friend
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it just like was a reminder for me of
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how clutch having a community around you
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is even being able to hear my friend
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tell me about everything that he's
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learned in the past week or so and like his ups and downs and seeing that up close just gives me so much more perspective and I'm just so I'm so thankful and my day is like leveling out here now like I feel pretty good I think it's just another reminder of the ups
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his ups and downs and seeing that up
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close just gives me so much more
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perspective and I'm just so I'm so
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thankful and my day is like leveling out
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here now like I feel pretty good I think
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it's just another reminder of the ups
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and downs are many and each Founders journey is unique but the experiences you go through during that Journey aren't I think that's where you can find a lot of camaraderie I'm going to spend the next like few hours finishing up on some Outreach stuff and call it a night
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journey is unique but the experiences
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you go through during that Journey
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aren't I think that's where you can find
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a lot of camaraderie I'm going to spend
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the next like few hours finishing up on
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some Outreach stuff and call it a night
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um but it's like around 5 right now and I'm always late to P these because I get like pulled into a meeting or like distracted by work so I got ready for it just now I'm going to finish like one more thing at work and then I am going to call it a day and go get my
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I'm always late to P these because I get
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like pulled into a meeting or like
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distracted by work so I got ready for it
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just now I'm going to finish like one
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more thing at work and then I am going
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to call it a day and go get my
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endorphins so believe it or not it's already like the end of Q2 April May June yes so crazy I feel like this year is flying by the last thing I'm doing right now is Google actually switched our performance review last year to quarterly reviews and so you know at the
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already like the end of Q2 April May
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June yes so crazy I feel like this year
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is flying by the last thing I'm doing
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right now is Google actually switched
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our performance review last year to
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quarterly reviews and so you know at the
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end of every quarter I have to list two to three things I accomplished get feedback from two to three people I think with these quarterly reviews you can definitely tell how you've been spending your time versus like an annual review I feel like you kind of forget what you did and what you accomplished
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to three things I accomplished get
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feedback from two to three people I
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think with these quarterly reviews you
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can definitely tell how you've been
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spending your time versus like an annual
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review I feel like you kind of forget
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what you did and what you accomplished
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so I do like that about the quarterly ones is that it's so top of mind but that being said there definitely is a little bit more pressure to get done in 3 months I'm actually feeling quite proud of myself this year because some of you may know like last year I
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ones is that it's so top of mind but
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that being said there definitely is a
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little bit more pressure to get
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done in 3 months I'm actually feeling
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quite proud of myself this year because
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some of you may know like last year I
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was just in such a slump and honestly I would get so much anxiety about these quarterly reviews last year because it just felt like I didn't have any momentum in the game and I think that's the perk of working with other people is you get a lot of insights on yourself
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would get so much anxiety about these
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quarterly reviews last year because it
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just felt like I didn't have any
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momentum in the game and I think that's
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the perk of working with other people is
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you get a lot of insights on yourself
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how other people work and what they do well and like what you want to emulate I've been getting pretty positive feedback in the different work streams I'm in so I think this is definitely going to be a better quarter for me so anyways just going to do that and then head over to plaes
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well and like what you want to emulate
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I've been getting pretty positive
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feedback in the different work streams
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I'm in so I think this is definitely
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going to be a better quarter for me so
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anyways just going to do that and then
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head over to plaes
