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I can't believe it's already
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quit my job I still can't believe I did that and yes we have a lot to catch up
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that and yes we have a lot to catch up
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has been 6 months since I left my job without a backup plan now I am sitting here in 20124 wondering do I regret
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without a backup plan now I am sitting
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here in 20124 wondering do I regret
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and that feeling has stayed very consistent for me I have not not really wavered on that at all since what I am surprised by and what I have been proven wrong is what this entire process would be like for me and looking back I feel like I went through four phases so far
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consistent for me I have not not really
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wavered on that at all since what I am
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surprised by and what I have been proven
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wrong is what this entire process would
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be like for me and looking back I feel
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like I went through four phases so far
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and I want to walk you through what my headp space was like in each of those phases and also if I could go back what I would want to tell myself given the things that I know now phase one farewell here's a snapshot of my heads space during this time did I really do
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headp space was like in each of those
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phases and also if I could go back what
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I would want to tell myself given the
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things that I know now phase one
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farewell here's a snapshot of my heads
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space during this time did I really do
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that wow it feels weird not getting pings from slack anymore I cannot wait for my Asia trip so during this time I had just left notion and I spent a total of 4 years there and it honestly feels so much longer I remember the morning after my last day I woke up did my
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pings from slack anymore I cannot wait
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for my Asia trip so during this time I
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had just left notion and I spent a total
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of 4 years there and it honestly feels
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so much longer I remember the morning
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after my last day I woke up did my
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routine coffee whatever and something felt really off and I realized it was because of the silence I had been so accustomed to my phone bone chirping away with slack notifications for years now and I'm not complaining I felt a mix of two emotions one is this disbelief of oh wow I can't believe I actually did it
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felt really off and I realized it was
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because of the silence I had been so
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accustomed to my phone bone chirping
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away with slack notifications for years
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now and I'm not complaining I felt a mix
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of two emotions one is this disbelief of
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oh wow I can't believe I actually did it
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and kind of adjusting to My New Reality and the second emotion was this deep sense of peace I spent some time with family and that was a great pit stop before my travels to Asia here is what I would tell myself then given the things that I know now you were right to trust
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and the second emotion was this deep
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sense of peace I spent some time with
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family and that was a great pit stop
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before my travels to Asia here is what I
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would tell myself then given the things
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that I know now you were right to trust
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your intuition and I am proud of you for acting on it phase two Voyage here's a snapshot of my head space during this time oh my gosh I love Asia I feel anxious about facing the unknown so during this time I visited both Korea and Japan for a total of 6 weeks and
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acting on it phase two Voyage here's a
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snapshot of my head space during this
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time oh my gosh I love Asia I feel
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anxious about facing the unknown so
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during this time I visited both Korea
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and Japan for a total of 6 weeks and
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this was my first solo international trip and I was like super excited but also nervous at the same time so the dominant emotions for me during this time was the continued sense of disbelief from the previous phase but in addition to that I kept being like Oh my gosh I can't believe I'm in Asia also
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trip and I was like super excited but
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also nervous at the same time so the
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dominant emotions for me during this
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time was the continued sense of
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disbelief from the previous phase but in
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addition to that I kept being like Oh my
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gosh I can't believe I'm in Asia also
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just this sense of like wow even just a year or so ago I wouldn't be able to imagine myself gallivanting in Asia for as long as I did just feeling very proud that I was able to create such a beautiful experience for myself but I will say that you know 10 of my mind
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year or so ago I wouldn't be able to
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imagine myself gallivanting in Asia for
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as long as I did just feeling very proud
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that I was able to create such a
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beautiful experience for myself but I
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will say that you know 10 of my mind
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was in this cycle of worry should I be doing anything even on the side know should I start taking meetings here and there with people who've been reaching out to me after I left notion is it okay to really take a break like this you know what I mean and what I would tell
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doing anything even on the side know
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should I start taking meetings here and
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there with people who've been reaching
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out to me after I left notion is it okay
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to really take a break like this you
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know what I mean and what I would tell
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myself then given the things I know now is this give yourself 100 permission to take a break you deserve it stage three wander this is what my head space looks like during this time so what's my new routine now time is flying by how much money do I have left what if I don't have anything to show
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is this give yourself 100 permission to
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take a break you deserve
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it stage three wander this is what my
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head space looks like during this time
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so what's my new routine now time is
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flying by how much money do I have left
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what if I don't have anything to show
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for it this entire year man I miss Asia I'm only now realizing how burned out I really was it was in this phase when I was like is going real and during this time my dominant emotions were the following so much pressure I felt like I needed to be really productive when
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I'm only now realizing how burned out I
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really was it was in this phase when I
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was like is going real and during this
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time my dominant emotions were the
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following so much pressure I felt like I
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needed to be really productive when
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honestly my mind and my body was just like not there and that's when I realized that I was actually way more burned out than I thought I was and actually needed more time to recover when in the beginning I thought like oh 6 weeks in Asia that's all the break that I'll need and I was wrong about
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like not there and that's when I
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realized that I was actually way more
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burned out than I thought I was and
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actually needed more time to recover
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when in the beginning I thought like oh
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6 weeks in Asia that's all the break
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that I'll need and I was wrong about
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that and the second thing I felt was just ton of constraint and like scarcity in terms of time running out money running out lastly was just a lot of Doubt a lot of what ifs what if this year doesn't amount to anything what if I have nothing to show for it what if
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just ton of constraint and like scarcity
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in terms of time running out money
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running out lastly was just a lot of
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Doubt a lot of what ifs what if this
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year doesn't amount to anything what if
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I have nothing to show for it what if
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what if and all of these emotions manifested into me turning into the this kind of tyrant over myself where I was trying to mimic work from home and I would force myself to spend the day in a cafe or the library I would pack my lunch and two snacks to minimize expenses and I wouldn't let myself come
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manifested into me turning into the this
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kind of tyrant over myself where I was
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trying to mimic work from home and I
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would force myself to spend the day in a
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cafe or the library I would pack my
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lunch and two snacks to minimize
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expenses and I wouldn't let myself come
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home until it was dark and it was just like so silly because it was actually making me miserable and not as productive in the ways that I actually wanted to be then something happened at the end of every year I do a yearly retroactive every year I do a yearly retroactive exercise
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like so silly because it was actually
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making me miserable and not as
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productive in the ways that I actually
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wanted to
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be then something happened at the end of
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every year I do a yearly retroactive
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every year I do a yearly retroactive exercise
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where I catalog a Year's worth of diary entries and I write an essay about it I stumbled upon something I wrote right after I left notion the most important things in life I have so what do I have to fear what do I have to worry what I have to lose despite the potential
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entries and I write an essay about it I
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stumbled upon something I wrote right
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after I left notion the most important
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things in life I have so what do I have
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to fear what do I have to worry what I
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have to lose despite the potential
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missteps and failures ahead I am loved by the people who matter once I read that I felt all the pressures and stress melt away I feel like we're always in search for answers ERS buried in some podcast in a New York Times bestseller book or whatever but I am so convinced
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by the people who matter once I read
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that I felt all the pressures and stress
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melt away I feel like we're always in
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search for answers ERS buried in some
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podcast in a New York Times bestseller
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book or whatever but I am so convinced
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that most of the times the thing that we need to hear at this exact moment you already know you just have to look within if I could go back earlier in this SP given what I know now is look within and let that be your guide phase four Wonder here's what my
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need to hear at this exact moment you
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already know you just have to look
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within if I could go back earlier in
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this SP given what I know now is look
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within and let that be your
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guide phase four Wonder here's what my
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headp space looked like during this time customer research calls I I want to make more room for my creative side I want to stay open and curious throughout this process I still feel all the same worries doubts and fears so during this phase I had just come out of doing that retroactive exercise I started to wonder
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customer research calls I I want to make
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more room for my creative side I want to
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stay open and curious throughout this
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process I still feel all the same
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worries doubts and fears so during this
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phase I had just come out of doing that
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retroactive exercise I started to wonder
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why did I love Asia so much travel and Novelty aside I think what I really loved about it was just the state of constant wonder that I was in a guiding question for me in 2024 is this how can I find the Wonder and wandering and I really have no idea what my life
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Novelty aside I think what I really
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loved about it was just the state of
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constant wonder that I was in a guiding
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question for me in
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2024 is this
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how can I find the Wonder and wandering
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and I really have no idea what my life
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will look like by the end of 2024 and while that is anxiety inducing especially at my age when most people around me are very settled in their careers relationships or even having kids I also wouldn't really have it any other way thank you so much for watching and just for bearing witness into my
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2024 and while that is anxiety inducing
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especially at my age when most people
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around me are very settled in their
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careers relationships or even having
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kids I also wouldn't really have it any
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other way thank you so much for watching
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and just for bearing witness into my
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journey so far and also last thing Amy and I have so much in store for our
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and I have so much in store for our
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channel in 2024 so stay tuned for that
